I realize that it's been a long time since I've written, but a lot has happened. On February 5 in the early morning hours, Jake suffered a cardiac arrest. Although CPR brought him back quickly, Jake spent the next several weeks in a coma. The arrest brought on seizure activity that was difficult to control, and he spent nearly 3 weeks in status epilepticus. Over the following 4 weeks, Jake was making miraculous improvements, and everything was really starting to look hopeful despite the neurologists' bleak prognosis. On March 23, Jake had some serious hemorrhaging within his lungs. Over the following six days, one organ after another began failing. On March 29th at 10:24 pm, Jake passed away. The organ failings are believed to be a result of complications from the transplant.
I don't have to say that I am devastated; that should be apparent. My heart hurts that I will not be able to continue on in this life with my companion. It's only been just over 2 weeks since he passed, and it's so fresh that I really don't know how to go on. Life has definitely changed dramatically.
My method of healing involves writing. I have many writings that I intend to make public (writings that many have already read), but I'm unsure at this point if I want to continue using this blog or begin another. This blog title no longer seems appropriate, but it might be nice to have everything from the beginning to current in one place. If I open a new one, I will post it. In the meantime, I will continue to post on Facebook.
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